desiring to be ahead in the writing of devos... and Bible study days...
I brought my angst to Him...
As soon as I did... the story of the widow and her son came to mind... the one Elijah was sent to for help during the three year drought...
When he arrived she was about to make her final meal... there was just enough flour... just enough oil... for one more meal for her and her son... then they planned to die...
And Elijah said to her, "Do not fear; go and do as you have said.
But first make me a little cake of it and bring it to me, and afterward
make something for yourself, and your son. For thus says the Lord,
the God of Israel, 'The jar of flour shall not be spent, and the jug of oil
shall not be empty, until the day that the Lord
sends rain upon the earth.'"
1 Kings 17:13-14 ESV
So she went and did as Elijah said... and she and he and her household ate for many days... the jar of flour was not spent... neither did the jug of oil become empty...
And I'm sure this widow must have felt the same sort of angst as me...
no surplus of oil and flour... just enough for each day...
from jars that looked almost empty...
No guarantee... but the word of the Lord... that there would be more...
My flour and oil... words... teachings... insight... they have come...
but just for the day... the week... the moment...
and me feeling almost empty in between...
No guarantee of more... just the understanding of His call to continue...
I discern greed in my desire for devos written days ahead....
seeking rest... and ease... in a place of excess...
the angst a sign of little faith...
Why can't I rest...? with words just coming as needed...?
The lesson of the oil and flour... just enough for the day... an exercise in trust...
The same lesson learned by the Israelites in the wilderness... the manna coming just for the day...
The same way Jesus teaches His disciples to pray... Give us this day our daily bread... not a week's worth... or month's worth... but just for today...
God tests... stretches faith... by calling us to live a season with narrow margin...
An uncomfortable place... but one I'm becoming at rest in... as I practice thanks... rather than greed...
What in your life do you want more of...? where have you not been thankful for the just enough? where is He stretching your faith... with narrow margin...?
Father God... thank You for the words for today...
and the time that is just enough... Thank You...
for stretching my faith... teaching me to live...
with narrow margin... and be content... with daily bread...
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