more on cynicism...

Yesterday... digging through a box of old journals... I find Scripture... written... highlighted...

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love...

Psalm 90:14

And I realize... cynicism... this doubting... eye-rolling... mocking... fear... flows out of a dissatisfied heart... disappointment... making itself known...

dissatisfied...expressing or showing lack of satisfaction: not pleased or satisfied...

satisfy... (the fourth definition...) convince... to put an end to (doubt or uncertainty): dispel

---Merriam-Webster's Collegiate Dictionary (11th Ed.)

There... I see me... disgruntled... dissatisfied... unconvinced... a cynic... in certain areas of unfulfilled desire...

Jesus calls me to surrender and there's nothing like releasing fears and falling into peace. It terrifies, true. But it exhilarates. This, this is what I've always wanted and never knew: this utter trust, this enlivening fall of surrender into safe hands.

---Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts Devotional

Can we have hope... without trust...? and how does a cynical heart... begin to trust...?

We take the moments as bread and give thanks and the thanks itself becomes bread. The thanks itself nourishes. Thanks feeds our trust.

---Ann Voskamp, One Thousand Gifts Devotional 

Thanks... being thank-full... for each and every moment...

A person cannot receive even one thing

unless it is given him from heaven.

John 3:27 ESV

Can I be thank-full... for setbacks... delays... hurts... pains...? Is it possible to receive them as grace... gift... from heaven...? Can I trust the One who says His love is unfailing... steadfast... that in ALL things... He will work for the good of those who love Him...?

It is good for our hearts to be strengthened by grace.

Hebrews 13:9

Hmmm... I need to see more fully... more clearly... His love...

His unfailing love... the foundation... for hope... and trust...

The Love that stoops down... empties Self... of divinity... majesty... glory... to rescue... redeem... restore...

Stoops... to the point of death... death... on... a... cross...

Here is the love that satisfies... the love that is trustworthy... feeds hope... and for which I can be... thank-full...

Thank You... Lord... for Your stooping down... for me...

for the elaborate gift of grace... wrapped just for me...

Remind me each day... Lord... 

Satisfy me in the morning... with Your unfailing love...