Choices that affect our lives... and relationships...
I dreamed last night... about a friend... one that chose to break relationship... just stopped writing back... stopped answering calls... without reason... without explanation...
She had made choices... even though she didn't tell me what they were... I heard... through another... the choices she made... sin-full choices... that led to her choice to break relationship...
I never understood her choice to break with me...
Did she think I would reject... so she did first... to save pain...?
Did she think I would try to save...?
Did she think I wouldn't understand...?
I loved her... still do... my heart still breaks over the broken relationship...
Does she not know this love...?
Above all, love each other deeply,
because love covers a multitude of sins.
1Peter 4:8
Does she not love deeply...?
Does she reject... rather than cover...?
I've made choices too... sin-full ones... ones that merit rejection... ones I've hidden... for years... fearing rejection...
Over the last few years... God has led me to reveal... confess... sin to loved ones... ones I feared being rejected by... literal gut-wrenching fear... but with each confession... I found deep love... the kind that covers a multitude of sins...
A love I long to share with others... a love that brings freedom... a love I want to pour out like grace... to bring healing... to my friend who rejected me... because of her choices... to another who did the same...
It's risky to seek forgiveness... it involves exposing oneself... humiliating oneself... admitting sin... pride prevents... fear paralyzes... but love is at stake... freedom... and grace...
Lord... thank You... for the unmerited grace and love you have poured into my life... use me to pour it into the lives of others... that they might know... Your love...
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