blessings... a la joy...

Most of my adult life... I've had a hard time receiving blessings with joy...

I suppose I believed I didn't deserve joy...
didn't deserve blessings...

As a pragmatic pessimist...
I saw the fleeting nature of joy...
it will pass and leave you flat...
disappointment sure to follow...

It's absolutely crazy...
it's not fun...
it's stupid...

The greatest blessing I've received lately...
is freedom to receive... blessings... with... joy...

I've been absolutely elated... over the littlest things...
just this week... the ordering of a shirt with free shipping...
an unexpected opening for an appointment...

It's odd... at least for me...

Blessings... a la joy...
I accredit to stepping out in faith...
evidence of His faithfulness...
when we are faithful to Him...

You make known to me the path of life;

in your presence there is fullness of joy;

at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Psalm 16:11 ESV