lesson in humility... again...

Today... seemed to fall apart... before 8:00 am...
Expectations unmet... several things to do... remained undone...
Tried to die to self... but only got tied up in knots...

What's wrong....? 

The question from my spouse as I readied to back out of the garage...

Nothing... my short reply... teeth gritted... nerves frayed...

I thought later... I should have answered... Me...!

I'm the one that's wrong... the one who continues to see things from the perspective of MY NEEDS... MY PLANS... MY TIMETABLE...!

Having been put off course early by a request from my spouse... led to selfish choices... looking after me... instead of others... frustration compounded with miscalculation of travel time... MY decided ETD an hour off...!

In knots by 7:58 am... repenting by 8:05 am... at peace somewhere around... 8:38 am...

On the road... listening to a message... one saved on my iPod...

Humility is to hold your power in service of others.                                                                      ---John Dickson

My power... as limited as it is... is more often than not used in service of me... not others... today a reminder of that... a day highlighting the hard places in my still so self-centered heart... so far from the character of Christ...

Relinquishing my illusion of control... to the One who IS in control... choosing to rest... trusting that He knew... knows... exactly how things will go... and has something for me to learn...

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved,

clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility,gentleness and patience.

Colossians 3:12

Lord... thank You... for the reminder that my power is to be used for others... in You... I have already received more than I deserve... I rest in You... and Your sovereignty... in my life... again...