longing...

My soul breaks with longing

For Your judgments at all times.

Psalm 119:20 NKJV

longing... noun... a strong desire especially for something unattainable: craving

---Merriam-Webster's Collegiate Dictionary (Eleventh Edition)

I've come to a place where I no longer desire... trust... my own judgments or opinions. I don't even want them anymore.

My soul breaks with longing... for His judgments... I long for them... crave them... regarding several issues in my life right now.

Webster's definition of longing includes the air of unattainability...

Are His judgments unattainable?

I don't think so...

In this world... they may feel unattainable... inaccessible... too many other voices... the enemy deceiving... our own hearts... flesh... desiring what we want... willing to be led a stray... wanting to be right... His judgments may seem out of reach...

But He tell us...

"Ask and it will be given to you;

seek, and you will find...

Matthew 7:7 ESV

So today I ask... and wait... with open ear... knowing He is faithful... trusting His Word to be true...

Lord... tell me Your judgments... I want to be in agreement with You... You alone can give trustworthy judgments... You alone know each heart... the heart of individuals and the heart of the law... I long for Your opinion... decision... pronouncement...

[Note: The two weeks away with family were good... a blessing... yet on return... I'm still left with longings... a reminder that this world is not my home... and my journey incomplete...]

This week's readings for The Journey...

Monday                  Leviticus 8

Tuesday                  Leviticus 9-10

Wednesday             Leviticus 11

Thursday                 Leviticus 12:1 - 13:27

Friday                     Leviticus 13:28-59